So I probably won’t die just yet but when the lady from the sleep study first told me on the phone that I stopped breathing 82 times during the night sometimes up to 34 seconds and that if I didn’t get treatment in 10 years I could have a long list of health issues like Alzheimer’s and high blood pressure and memory loss I was grateful that I would get to do another study so I could try the CPAP machine but that was before I would cry out to God in the middle of the night to free me from the tiny dark cave where the technician hooked me up and glued me to the wires and abandoned me with only a small breathing hole- at least that’s what it felt like.
Now Friends, generally I am not really a complainer. Two years ago when a doctor slid a tube down my throat before a group of eight interns in a tiny beige room a couple weeks before my four hour thyroidectomy for papillary thyroid carcinoma and the doctor told me I did a really good job as he slid the tube back out; I told him- “But I could have done so much better.”
But the air in my nose at night gives me panic attacks.
I am determined I will not pull the mask off tonight. I am positive the memory loss is kicking in especially after reading this article.
Maybe I should avoid online medical articles for a time.
You know that sensation of losing your marbles when you walk into the kitchen to get something and then you can’t remember what you were going to get? This is happening more and more. I recently said to someone “I know, I really want to do that yesterday.”
Life can be stressful I know, sometimes too much is going on at once.
Relaxing breathing exercises, French, and Psalm 23- I’m gonna beat this tube.
Sleepy, a.k.a. Dormeur
P.S. Research gems pop up all over the internet.
P.S.S. Now that I’ve gotten this publishing thing down I hope to post in the moment.
P.S.S.S. Now that I’ve starting writing more after 46 years of thinking about it, I hope to post my advice column soon for young writers or for people who need advice about anything from how to avoid allergies or their mother-in-law or the PTA or the job market. Feel free to ask here anytime. Se habla español.